I would like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly...

It is raining right now. Sigh..

Out of the blue, i felt that i'm a loser and a loner. I feel so left out when i'm at home and yesterday too.

Yesterday i went to my brother house and its seem that there's something they hidding from me and i can sense i'm not part of them and they ignoring me.

So i left the house without letting them know.

Today at home everyone seem that they are against me. Sigh. I did went out though its rain but seeing other people who went out with their family do really hurt me.

I did promised not to touch on this family issues here but i broke it. Yes, i'm a loser! idk either but seriously i'm. :(

Yes, i'm feeling so emo right now. Am listening to my ipod and at the same time typing this.

I feel that i have nowhere to go right now. Before this if i'm feeling down i usually go to my bro's house but now the feeling to go to his house is like totally gone! :(

Why?

Why my life is so cruel? What i did that till they treated me like that?

Sigh..

I'm so totally speechless right now. No one to talk to. I feel so lonely and so depressed!

I wanting to msn someone about my problem but it seem that i cant Xpress myself with my friends.

Sigh,

Ida did msned me by saying wether i'm ok but i purposely ignored her.

Sorry ida. I didn't have the mood to chat right now. Im so pissed. Pissed which i also don't know...

Internet connection seems lagging. Sigh.

I hate this kind of feeling. Yes, tmr is a better day for me, but its had been 2 days i was feeling this shit.

Sigh..

Now i'm relying with my hamster but he cant do anything. All he does is to eat, sleep and shit. Sigh..

But not to worry hamster, i'll still love you not like my family members..

Sigh..

At least i feel a lil bit better after typing this. Thanks blooger! :|

Can anyone tell me why singnet broadband is so freaking slowwwww??? Does it had something to do with the rain and stuff?

So i'm done.

K bye.

sorry ida i ignore you in msn! and sorry if my grammer is so merepek and being so emo. Not in the mood to change em and its my blog. I've the right to write merepek thing and stuff.. whatever lar..

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