Imagine being a geek in school now turned to a wild child and i strongly agree by saying that after judging from all her pictures. Gosh, i was taken back awhile. I reflect and think for a while. Why she change so drastically? Who is to blame? Her parents or the way she socializing with? Somehow i pitty her. It really shocked me for a moment!
I strongly agree that people do change. I mean all people in this world. The truth is i do change alot. From a good kwai kwai boy way back in sec school days now seems that err i don't know but trying or should i say experimenting with new stuff is a trend in youth. Its undeniable. Yes, i also want to want to try something new and i kinda regret it after doing it involving my mum to broke into tears. Sigh a moment of folly is a moments of regrets. I still remember her shouting and swearing at me and i could see tears rolling from her eyes though i wasn't being myself that particular yet unforgettable day. Sigh, i still love my mum though. I'm sorry mum and dad! (=.=)'
What i want to conclude here is treasure what you have now which is your family. Think of the consequences if you want or have done something bad / evil / sinful. Yes, its ok to make mistakes but do it secretly by not uploading your stupid stuff for examples - Having your pictures taken in an hotel happily after having sex - Showing off that you just drank a bottle of whiskey and proudly show them when your a muslim - Having sex openly in public imagine all that VIA ONLINE esp FRIENDSTER!.. Gosh, can you imagine how shameful your parent(s) could be if your cousins found out or worse still your own dad and mum found out.
Again, i'm not here saying that i'm a good boy or something but i find it random to blog about it. Oh wait, neither i m here saying that i'm an angel or something but i'm just a 18 years old boy who yet to explore thing. I'm just like other youth who loves to explore. What is my point and lastly to sum it all up ; If you want to do something sinful please do it secretly la - don't happly say that you have sex openly and saying it was shiok - don't happly say to others that hey i just drank 3 shots of maragitas or what shit u spelt that - hey i just had anal sex wooo it fun sia after drinking ; just keep it within yourself and don't feel proud of it. Think of your parents who brought you up and the shame if the news is spread to em.
Lastly no matter how bad your mum or dad could be ; trust me they have a reasons why they do it. Imagine, now they could be nagging all day long but have you ever think why they does it? Because they concern about you. Which mum and dad doesn't love their children right? Yes, i do admit that its kinda frustated to hear it but have you ever think if one day they left you ; you will feel the oddNESS cause you cant hear their voices anymore and from there you will regret and misses them like shit. Treasure what you have now and love them as fullest as you can before they left you.
Now i'm trying my best to be with them and make them happy as i know they cant live long and i have to face the fact that they cant live long as - Dad conditions is getting worse which he may need to be on dailysis when the verdict is out this Monday (3/11) and its kinda sadden to see him lying on the bed shivering when the weather is bloody shimmering hot + somehow no matter how sick he is, he will still get his body up to work to support his family ; Mum who diagnosed stomach cancer way back in 2004 and in any time the cancer could some back and i do feel guilty after what i've done towards her. Its kinda scared me if she complain that her stomach is acking or in pain. Of course she does not express those in words but her expression says it all. I don't want that to happen and i want to say i love you mum infront of her but my ego is stopping me from doing. Hopefully this hari raya i could express it loud towards her and dad!! Arrggghh, MUM and DAD I'm SORRY!!!...
Gosh, i'm tearing while typing this. Sob sob. Relax, maintaing now.. Shit ah, iTunes is playing jiwang song sia.. Baskate.. So people out there, treasure your love one now before they're gone! Trust me, enjoy every bits with them as you will never know when is the time they have to go! Now i've my family and NurJanna.. She is my baby now. Hahah. Mz Jenap. She cute lar.. Somehow her smile melt me.. Hehe. Ok out of point.. x) Haha, kidding..
Till then, sit back and reflect and err if you want to comment bout this the tagboard is there and sorry if this bored you! bye
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