Father's Day. Haa. I managed to catch the last ending part of the show, "Angel" aired on channel 5. I was touch and admit that I sob a bit where the scene where Jason, his son, hugged his dad really tight and both of them cry.
It somehow remind me how I dream of my late dad where actually I know I was hugging something/someone, possibly my pillow - where I hug him really tight like the scene but he didn't utter any word or said any word in the dream. Sigh. Up till now and honestly, I miss him presence to the extreme.
Every time I laid my head on the pillow, I would pray to god that I meet him and hug him real tight like I did previously. If I have the chance to say in front of him, I would say "DAD, HAPPY FATHER'S DAY. YOU’RE THE GREATEST DAD THAT I EVER HAD! PLEASE COME BACK HOME!!"
Back to reality, I can't... He is gone, now, tomorrow and forever.
People take things for granted as for my case. I groan and keep complaining whenever when he needed help to massage his leg now I miss every single bit of it. I fought back and show my attitude whenever he scolds and nagged but now I miss his angry and loud voice. I miss the day where I was caught smoking and he cut down my school money but now I don't mind it all now. The day he saw an album of me and my ex hugging and stuff, he was really angry with me during fasting month, and that is last time where I heard his scolding.
What hurt the most is that I didn't manage to say that I’m sorry on the night he left us. In fact I didn't know that he is gone. I've learnt the most valuable lesson in life which is treasure thing for granted. We never know what going to happen next few seconds, hours and minutes.
Lastly DAD, if you happen to read this - Happy Father's Day and I'm sorry for all my wrong doing.
May you soul rest in peace up there.
And if your a dad or dad to be, Happy Father's day.
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